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How I Feel About My Mom’s Death

I wrote this poem a couple of days ago after waking up from a bad dream where I could not find my mom and it was close to my birthday and I woke up with overwhelming grief and write out how I felt in my journal and then I wrote this:

“It has been almost 14 years to the day
Since she passed away
My mom is gone, alive on Earth no more
Since being hit by a car in December of 2017, I feel the loss stronger than ever before

Where was God when she felt unloved?

Where was God when her spirit was crushed,
and her heart and soul were broken?
Why did He let her die with her heart not able to be fully open?
Unable to open her heart to receive God’s, mine, and others’ love for her inside.
If she had, maybe she would not have cried and cried, and given up on living (and recovering from her heart attacks), or made the decision to go Home and die.
My Mom’s death left a huge hole in my heart and in my life.
And the worst part is I never got to say goodbye to her while she was still (barely) alive.

God promises me my heart He will mend
And He promises me I will see my Mom again, on the day I die and He brings me Home to Heaven.
But right now I miss her so much it hurts.
And in my life, there are days I see no worth.
I am putting in energy and time to work through my grief.
Death is a rotten, dirty thief!
But deah does Not have the final word.
My pain and tears, God has not ignored.
My health, heart, relationships and everything else will be FULLY Restored!
By the LORD, my God, Whom I love and adore.”

I also read 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18 to remind myself that I will see my mom again and be reunited with her forever. I also read verses like Psalms 34:17-20, 147:3 and Zephaniah 3:17 when I am really missing my mom and need to know God cares and is here with me.

Thank you to everyone that takes the time to read this. I miss my mom a lot and the anniversary of her death (June 28, 2006) is coming up… So prayers and hugs appreciated and I keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers. 💜🙏

P.S. If there is anyone else missing a lost loved one, I can pray for you if you let me know, or we can talk about it if you need someone to talk to. God bless and may God’s peace be with you All!

Happy Resurrection Sunday All! Jesus IS Risen!

Hey everyone, this #ResurrectionSunday (Easter), I want to share a worship song from Brian Littrell called Wish. The link is to a music video on YouTube of Brian singing how he wishes he had been there when Jesus was growing up, when He lay down His life for us, and is risen again. This song makes me cry every time because I actually imagine Jesus laying His will down at the garden where He prayed moments before being betrayed, asking the Father to please take the cup of grief from Him if possible, but not His (Jesus) will be done, but the Father’s will. (Luke 22:41-44)

He lay down His life for you and for me, and Brian paints a clear picture of Jesus’ life and betrayal that led to Him hanging on a cross, dying for us so we could be saved. And He is Risen TODAY, 3 days later, to reconcile us to God through Him, and also He gave us victory over death.

Take a moment and pray with me please: Heavenly Father, thank You for giving Your only Begotten Son, Jesus, to die for us. Jesus thank You for dying for me and for the whole world and being risen by the power of the Holy Spirit on this day over 2000 years ago to reconcile us to God and to conquer death once and for all for us. Thank You for bearing our sins and wounds and sicknesses so we could be healed by Your wounds, so the power of sin could be broken in our lives, and so we can live peaceful lives here on Earth and then spend eternity in Heaven with You and the Father.

And now I ask in Your Beloved Name for you to draw us all close to You and let those not saved take the steps to be saved, and let those of us who are saved be so close to Your heart that we will not be led astray. Forgive us all for all of our sins, cleanse us and create pure and undivided hearts in us, let us lean into Your faithful love and promises for protection, healing, and provision instead of giving in to any further panic the CV pandemic has caused all around the world, and like You withered the tree that would not give You a fig from the roots up, may You do the same with this virus and others like Cancer and Lupus, and Celiac Disease. Make it safe to give and receive hugs, kisses and other personal touches that allow us to feel the love others have for us, as well as Your love for us. Let Your love and light shine in our darkness and make all darkness disappear from our hearts, minds, and from our lives. Amen

Isaiah 53:5 tells us that “by His wounds you are healed.” If you need healing today, let what Jesus did for us on the cross over 2000 years ago, and his being risen back to life again open your hearts and minds to receive the healing Jesus wants to give you, and believe it is possible. It may not happen immediately, but You will notice a part of you healed whether physically, mentally and emotionally, or spiritually and let that give you hope that in His time, you will be fully healed. And ask Him what you are meant to learn or teach others through this pain and consider that God may be preparing to show His glory through You like in John 9 when Jesus healed a man blind from birth and told the disciples it was done (the man being born blind) for the glory of the Father. When His disciples and others saw the man being healed, everyone (including the man healed from his physical blindness) was amazed and people were praising God for the miracle they had witnessed. And the Pharisees wanted to know who had healed him and it was revealed eventually it was Jesus who did it and then He addressed the Pharisees about their spiritual blindness.

Now I admit, I am still asking God what the point of letting me be hit by a car but not bringing me Home to Heaven, but instead allowing me to suffer in immense chronic physical pain and anguish over it is. And someone spoke a healing prayer and did like a healing the way Peter did in the NT and I expected the healing to work. It worked a little bit for a brief time. I did what the man told me to do but I need to believe there is a reason it did not work and why I am not healed. It is possible that hurts from traumas in my past are stopping the healing from working, and God is working with me to heal from my past. So something good did come out of that healing prayer.

It is also possible to that people who are not focused on the negative or how things are now from a visual point if view could also look at me and marvel that I am still fighting the enemy daily to hold on to my faith and hope in Jesus, and be encouraged by it, and I am hoping that is true, so that my suffering can serve a positive purpose while I wait on God to be ready to fully heal me completely in every single way.

Brian ends his song Wish with the conviction (like he believes it without a doubt) that someday he WILL see Jesus and His mercy and grace, that he will see Jesus face-to-face. And the truth is, that when Jesus comes back, we will ALL see Him face to face. In the meantime, we live like Jesus (the best we can, with help from the Holy Spirit), believe His promises are for us, receive and accept His love and forgiveness for our sins in our hearts and love Him back with our whole being, and trust in His goodness and trust that He will heal the sick (including you if you need any form of healing), protect us from deadly plague and harm (read Psalms 91), and will provide us each with everything we need as we need it (Philippians 4:19). Have a blessed Resurrection Sunday everyone.

The Source of All Comfort (God)

Alexis Malek

December 3, 2013

The Source of All Comfort (God)

Some passages to turn to when you are mourning the loss of a loved one are listed below…I am trying to let these passages bring my comfort right now since my Nana (grandmother) just passed away today and my Grandy (grandfather) passed away 12 days ago and his funeral was today. Nana did not want to be apart from Grandy, now that is true love! And they are both reunited with my mom since she passed away over 7 years and 5 months ago on June 28, 2006. Memories of how I felt during that time have been assaulting me and it is nice to know that God cares when we are in pain whether it be physical or emotional (or spiritual  or mental or any combo of the above). It is wonderful to know God is close-by and wants to wipe the tears from our eyes and heal and comfort us. Why does God take away our loved ones? In the case of my mom, Nana, and Grandy I firmly believe it was to end their suffering and pain, and for my mom also to protect her from the evil in this world (maybe). It is usually to end suffering and pain, to protect them from evil (Isaiah 57:1), or because he needs them with him. Even though we don’t always understand why God lets people godly people (and good people/children not old enough to understand about God yet) die so young, we must not get angry with him like I did after my mom passed away. We must trust God had a good reason and that he will give us beauty for our ashes (Isaiah 61:2-3 which is one of the verses found below). To any of you reading this who have recently lost a loved one or miss a loved one you have ever lost at any point in your life, may God and these verses from his written word below bring you comfort and peace, healing and strength, and everything else you stand in need of. May God turn your mourning into a time for joy. Know they are in a better place, with Jesus and the angels, and that someday you will be reunited with them. I am trying to remember that since England is far away from Northern California and I am crushed that I may not make it to my Nana’s funeral. I missed my grandfather’s funeral which was today and only a miracle of God can bring me to England which I want so I can say goodbye to my Nana in a way that also lets me be with my relatives in England during this time and do whatever God might want me to do (such as talk about God to my family in England) while I am there. God is in the business of miracles and it is possible, but only if God is willing. May all of you who mourn a loved one’s passing feel God’s love, peace, and comfort. Now would be the time to lean on God and on his comfort instead of turning away in anger, shock, and pain because when these feelings have passed you may find it hard to turn back to God again later. Therefore, let God bring you peace and comfort and know that he cares about your pain and suffering. God is the source of all comfort and he comforts us so we will in turn comfort someone else in their time of need when they need comforting and then we will know how to comfort them because of how God comforted us.

Some comforting verses to let us know God is here and cares when we mourn:

Matthew 5:4, “God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.”

Psalm 34:18, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.”

Psalms 147:3 “He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.”

Isaiah 57:2, “For those who follow godly paths will rest in peace when they die.”

Isaiah 57:18-19, “I will comfort those who mourn, bringing words of praise to their lips. May they have abundant peace, both near and far,” says the Lord, who heals them.”

Isaiah 61:2-3, “He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of the Lord’s favor has come, and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies. To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his own glory.

2 Corinthians 1:3-4, “All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.

Update and Preview of My Thoughts

Hello my readers,

I am still trying to shake the remaining symptoms of both the flu and my asthma but also still have faith God will heal me fully. I have a couple of different things I want to write about but first have to figure out how to say it. I heard a sermon at my church about how Great God is so gonna figure out what to say about that since I had thoughts I wanted to share with my readers to help inspire you into seeing how great God is. Of course it will take more than reading the bible or reading any of my blogs to experience God’s greatness. You will need to find out for yourself. And in the meantime, think about something amazing God has done for you or for someone you know and if he did something amazing for you then know that in your future, even more amazing things are in store. My current question, after tonight’s Bible study about what you need to stop doing and do more of to be right with God is this: What do I need to do to honor God and move forward with God’s plan for my life? What can I do to serve God in such a way that he will see that I am ready to work my dream job and be with my true love like God promised? I have faith God will give me the answers I need. What is your question to God right now? Is it on how you can be a better servant to him or is it self-serving? If you are unsure what question to ask God, maybe you too could ask him what is next for you (if you are in a place where you feel stuck). If you don’t feel stuck and life is good then maybe you don’t have a question for God right now, which is okay. Of course there is always room for improvement, which I have learned, so maybe you could ask what you can do to better serve God or help others. Go to Luke 3:8-14 if you need help in figuring out specifically what you either need to stop doing, or what you need to do more of. John the Baptist is asked by a few different types of people (a tax collector, soldier, someone in law enforcement) each asking what they should do after hearing John preach. He gives them each individual answers based on who they were and what they were currently doing and needed to do less of or more of. May God bless all of you and bring healing to anyone else who needs it (like I do), whether it be physical healing, spiritual, mental, or emotional or any combination. Whatever type of healing you need, may Jesus lay his healing hands on you and heal those of you who need it. I hope to write a real blog again soon. Thanks for stopping by to read and find out how I am doing and what I am thinking currently.

Sick (and should be) in Bed

I just wanted to take a moment to let you all know that the reason I am not writing right now is because the flu is trying to take over my body and I have suffered fro severe asthma since I was 11 years old so my asthma has gone crazy too so on top of coughing, feeling achy, sore throat, and other flue symptoms I have trouble breathing and congested and runny nose, possibly congested chest but I do not know as I didn’t get an x-ray at the hospital yesterday. Anyhow, there is a blog I am wanting to write but I don’t think I have the energy to write it right now so I hope I can still remember what I want to say when I feel better. Have a good night and blessed day tomorrow! Thanks for reading even though this is about me and not an inspirational blog post. Although….for some inspiration…I am praying to God for full healing (in the name of Jesus) and am working at keeping the faith that this is temporary and that I am being healed 100% by God, just not immediately which means there must be a purpose for my being sick right now even if I don’t currently understand what that purpose is. I have got my God, tissues, soup, Alka-Seltzer Plus that I dissolve into a glass of water, AND tea, plenty of water, and the medications I was prescribed yesterday including the yucky but efficient Prednisone. I have faith God is putting his healing touch in the medication and the tea and Alka-Seltzer Plus to make me well again. I should be laying down and that sounds like a good idea right now (except for the runny nose) so I probably will soon.

Healing for the Sick

Alexis Malek

October 15, 2013

Healing For the Sick

When you are sick, no matter what illness plagues you, there are different ways you can go about getting well. You can certainly go to the doctor, and should if you have a fever or any other serious symptoms. If you don’t feel it is serious and think it is just a cold or the flu and you have no fever or only low grade fever of 100.00 or less, then there are people who self-medicate or rough it out and do nothing. While all of these ways work most of the time, there is something you can do that will never fail. What way is this? Call on Jesus, our Healer.

There are certainly times you will need medical attention, but before going to the doctor, for believers, scripture tells us prayer is the answer. The apostle James tells us in James 5:14-15, “Are any of you sick? You should call for the elders of the church to come and pray over you, anointing you with oil in the name of the Lord. Such a prayer offered in faith will heal the sick, and the Lord will make you well. And if you have committed any sins, you will be forgiven.” Now you may be thinking, “What if I attend a church that does not have elders or where the elders do not make house calls?” Well if that is the case, pray for the person who is sick at church when prayer requests are being made. If it is you who is sick and need prayer and you are too ill to go to church, try to get in touch with a Sister or Brother from church who can pray for you if you are able to speak. If it is not possible to talk at all, then silently pray (in your mind) in the name of Jesus for healing. When you pray in faith, just like the many who went to Jesus or were brought to Jesus when he was here on earth, the Lord will see your faith and heal you. In Matthew 9:12-3, some friends brought to Jesus a paralyzed man on a mat. Look how Jesus responded: “Some people brought to him a paralyzed man on a mat. Seeing their faith, Jesus said to the paralyzed man, “Be encouraged, my child! Your sins are forgiven.” Still in chapter 9 of Matthew, verses 20-22 another miracle is performed by a woman who had strong enough faith to reach out and touch Jesus’ robe to be healed. Matthew 9:20-22 says, “Just then a woman who had suffered for twelve years with constant bleeding came up behind him. She touched the fringe of his robe, for she thought, “If I can just touch his robe, I will be healed.” Jesus turned around, and when he saw her he said, “Daughter, be encouraged! Your faith has made you well.” And the woman was healed at that moment.” Jesus can only heal you if you believe without a doubt that he can. Remember that Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead in John 11. It begins in verse 1 and ends at verse 44, but for the sake of space only verses 43 and 44 will be quoted. Feel free to read the whole true story about how Lazarus was sick and Jesus told his disciples that it was happening for the glory of God and then read all the way to the end where Jesus tells the others to roll away the rock and commands Lazarus to come out in verse 43 and he comes out in verse 44. – John 11:43-44: “Then Jesus shouted, “Lazarus, come out!And the dead man came out, his hands and feet bound in graveclothes, his face wrapped in a headcloth. Jesus told them, “Unwrap him and let him go!Notice it said “the dead man came out,” as in Lazarus was dead, but Jesus brought him back to life. That same power that brought Lazarus back to life and healed so many people with various different diseases, healed those with leprosy, and healed the demon-possessed still has that same mighty power to day and still has the same compassion to heal those who ask in faith and believe wholeheartedly without a doubt that it can be done.

In Psalm 30:2, King David said, “O Lord my God, I cried to you for help and you restored my health.” If you go forward a little bit to Jeremiah 30:17, God promised “I will give you back your health and heal your wounds,” says the Lord.” Aside from lack of faith, the only other thing that will prevent you from being healed is unconfessed sin. For an example of this, look to Psalm 38:3. King David had sinned against God and tried to hide it from him and said the following in Psalm 38:3: “Because of your anger, my whole body is sick; my health is broken because of sins.” Go back to Psalm 32 and you will see the answer to unconfessed sin, which is to confess your sins. If you confess your sins, you will be forgiven. Psalm 32:5 says, “Finally, I confessed all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide my guilt. I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.” And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone.” Next time you are feeling ill or need any form of healing, you can use Jeremiah’s prayer from Jeremiah 17:14 which says, “Heal me Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise.” You can make it a bit more personalized of course, but if you feel weak and need a short prayer, you can use Jeremiah’s prayer. Jeremiah had great faith in God when he prayed that prayer to be healed. But if you have faith as small as a mustard seed (Matthew 17:20-21), Jesus can work with that.

After you are done praying, if you are not healed right away, listen to God’s guidance and allow him to lead you to the right doctor so that you won’t be wasting your time and money without any results like that woman in Mark 5 (also in Matthew 9, the woman who touched Jesus’ robe but Mark 5 goes into more detail of her condition), where the woman who touched Jesus’ robe to be healed had been suffering bleeding for 12 years and had suffered a lot from them, spending lots of money and instead of getting better, her condition got worse. But then when she heard about Jesus, she went to him and touched the fringe of his robe with the faith that by touching it, she would be healed. Her faith in Jesus is what healed her. So before going to the doctor, depending on the symptoms you have (if it is not a cold or the flu, but something more serious), you may not want to go to any doctor. God can direct you to the right doctor who can cure or heal you completely. When the healing power of Jesus teams up with the doctor treating you, then your sickness better watch out because healing will knock all sickness right out! When God is involved, you may find that you are healed of your illness sooner than if you had left God out of the solution and told him you could handle it on your own. If that is not the case, know that God has a plan for your sickness and that when you are healed, you will be repaid for your trouble (of being sick for longer than you should have been). God will not let his children suffer without using the suffering for their good in some way. God promises in Romans 8:28 (through the Apostle Paul), “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” This “everything” includes sickness that lingers longer than it is supposed to. God is promising you that if he brought you to it, he has a good plan for it, and that he will bring you through it better off than you were before.

If you are thinking, “Well what if it is just a cold, sinus infection, or the flu or some other untreatable virus or infection?” If that is the case, pray to God for healing and remember to load up on Vitamin C (but don’t overdo it), chicken noodle soup, and hot caffeine-free tea – preferably with eucalyptus and Echinacea in it to help with your breathing, and add some lemon and honey to it. Team all of that up with plenty of rest. For the vitamin C, you can either drink Orange Juice (or apple juice or grape juice that has a good amount of vitamin C and is low on sugar or sugar-free), or drink Emergen-C (powder you mix into a bottle of water thoroughly and drink it). If you have a hard time swallowing but are able to chew on gummies, then you can try a gummy version of vitamin C. Whatever you decide to do, whether it be to rough it out, to use home remedies or self-medicate yourself, or to go see a doctor, always begin with prayer to our Lord the Healer first. That way you can either be blessed with instant healing, or directed by God to the best form of healing for you and whatever is ailing you.

I’d like to end this blog with a prayer for anyone who is not feeling well or needs any form of healing be it physical, spiritual, mental, or emotional (or any combination). I will do two different prayers: 1 for you and 1 for someone else if it is someone else who needs healing.

“Dear God, I pray in Jesus’ name that you lay your healing hands on me and my whole body (including my heart), soul, mind, and spirit of all sickness, pain, and disease. I know that the same power you used to raise Jesus from the dead can heal me of all sickness and I thank you that you heard my prayer and are healing me. Amen.”

If you are praying for someone else: “Dear God, I pray in Jesus’ name that you lay your healing hands on (Insert person’s name here) and heal them completely of all sickness, pain, and disease. I want to thank you that you heard my prayer and are already healing them with the same mighty power that raised Jesus from the dead. Thank you that you are healing (insert name here) right now, as I finish this prayer. Amen.”

Now if you or the person are praying for need a more specific prayer, then you can add to the prayer exactly what you need healing from or what the person you are praying for needs healing from and that way, the more specific you are, the better will be the results of your prayer. When you are unable to be more specific, have faith that the simple prayers above will work when you have faith that God will hear your prayer and immediately go to work to heal you or whoever you are praying for who needs the healing.

Jesus Heals Many

             Jesus healing a young woman   “After leaving the synagogue that day, Jesus went to Simon’s home, where he found Simon’s mother-in-law very sick with a high fever. “Please heal her,” everyone begged. Standing at her bedside, he rebuked the fever, and it left her. And she got up at once and prepared a meal for them. As the sun went down that evening, people throughout the village brought sick family members to Jesus. No matter what their diseases were, the touch of his hand healed every one.”

Foregiveness and Why It’s Important

Alexis Malek

August 20, 2013

Forgiveness and Why It’s Important

You may have heard the saying “To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover the prisoner was you,” or “To err is human; to forgive is divine.” Both sayings are absolutely true. When you forgive someone, you are freeing yourself from the pain, hurt, stress, anguish and all of the other negative emotions attached to unforgiveness and giving yourself a chance to heal and find peace. Forgiving yourself and forgiving others is an important key to happiness and to God’s blessings. When you hold a grudge against someone, you are not punishing them, you are only hurting yourself. Once you come to that realization, you can forgive whoever has hurt you or whoever you hold a grudge against and know you’re not saying “I’m okay with what he/she did,” but are saying, “I refuse to let what they did to me hurt me and steal my peace anymore.” When you forgive, you lift a huge weight off of you and are free and feel peace and love instead.

It is a bit trickier when you need to forgive yourself, but that is as important as forgiving others. When you are angry with yourself, you are punishing yourself and blocking God’s blessings for you. You need to understand that you are human and are bound to make mistakes but that what is important is to learn from the mistakes and that starts when you open your heart and forgive yourself and let yourself receive God’s forgiveness He had already given to you and His love and love of yourself.

You should have your heart and mind open to forgiveness regardless of whether or not you believe in God, because whether or not you believe in his existence, unforgiveness causes physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual health problems. People who hold grudges and harbor unforgiveness tend to feel body aches and pains all over, have low energy and are always tired, have trouble concentrating, and are miserable most of the time. Why would anybody want to live that way? As soon as you understand the two concepts mentioned earlier: First, that when you forgive someone you are not condoning their actions or saying it was okay and second, that the person suffering as long as you refuse to forgive is you and not the other person, then you will find it easier to forgive.

Another thing to understand about forgiveness is that by forgiving you are merely letting go of the anger, bitterness, pain, hurt, resentment, and all other negativity attached to unforgiveness and that this does not require you letting the person back into your life if they did something really horrible to you. But if the offense was minor, such as the other person using the washing machine or oven (or other appliance) when you were going to use it, then overreacting and being rude and holding a grudge is a waste of your time and energy. The reason why you have low energy when you are holding a grudge is because it takes all of your energy to stay angry with the other person. So whether someone is guilty of a minor offense or a major offense (or one in between), it is important to forgive the offender for your own health and peace of mind and heart. You do not even have to let the other person know you have forgiven them, particularly if it was a major offense. Just simply let go of all of the anger, pain, hurt, resentment, and bitterness; let go of whatever it is the other person did to you. If it was not a major offense (and sometimes even if it was, depending on how much the person means to you), once you have realized that then you may want to let the other person know they are forgiven, especially if they were (or are) a close friend, family member, or someone you love in any way.

Are you holding a grudge against anyone or harboring unforgiveness towards others? Are you condemning yourself and refusing to forgive yourself for something you have done to God or to someone else (or to both God and someone else)? If it is something you did against God, he tells us in 1 John 1:9, “But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.” All of Psalm 32 also talks about forgiveness and it would be worth reading, whether or not you have ever read it before. God forgives you the moment you confess your sin so you should forgive yourself too. For sins others have done to you, Jesus tells us in Matthew 6:14-15, “If you forgive those who have sinned against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins.” It probably won’t happen overnight, but you can learn to forgive completely and frequently so that every time someone commits a sin against you, then you can forgive them and whenever you do something wrong and have confessed (to God or to the person(s) you sinned against) your sin, you can forgive yourself. Try it today, it is very freeing! When you forgive yourself and others, you will be unloading a huge burden and you will feel joy, peace, and love and you will feel wonderful.